Everyday Lesson Learned

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Recalling those precious moments
scattered along my time span
gifts from life to color my days
creating a half-finished mosaic that glide over my mind
over and over again

A million stars
A cup of coffee
An afternoon busway
An evening train
The dare-game
and some others…

I wish I can repeat one of those
for a moment or two
I wish I can find one similar to those
though only for a minute or two
just to remind me the wonder of this thrill

But if my wish won’t come true
let me treasure those in the past
and hang them on the walls of my heart
so I can look at it
by the night before I sleep
and the time I wake up the morning

This question is glued in my mind after I re-read Rick Warren’s Purpose Driven Life and make me want to write something about it.

What did I do with what God gave me? What did I do with my life – all the gifts, talents, educations, opportunities, energy, relationship, dream, achievement, and other resources that God freely and abundantly gave to me.

Copying Rick’s questions to myself; did I spend them on myself or did I use them for the purpose God made me for?

All I want for sure is an ideal answer to this obvious question. Of course, that question only make sense to you who believe there is God. If you don’t, just forget of what I just wrote.
That past tense question is meant to be asked in the end of our life, in the beginning of our eternity. And that question is revealing more than what my life is all about.

“Himawan, what did you do with what I gave you?”

When I am looking at my life now, I am not ready for this question yet. This question is portraying on how I live my life; either selfishly for myself or wisely shared with others. Pondering this question is kind of making blue print of my life in the future. But our human eyes cannot see the whole picture and we’re limited with “now” or present or this time or this moment. The past is the past, it is gone already. The future; nobody, absolutely nobody knows what’s going to happen.  By knowing that, I would like to modify the question into: what am I doing with what God has given me now? This reality check question hopefully will counter me back when I am starting to get busy without purpose, to do too much things but not accomplishing anything, or to drift away and can’t figure out what’s going on.

Last thing to ponder; everyone is pursuing happiness. I guess I should ask, what kind of happiness do I seek?
Is it for myself – like getting myself a super-cool mini cooper do some fun-drive session and enjoy my life. A kind of eating, drinking, and be merry.
Or for something else.
Until now I still believe that a life worth living is a life well shared. And a life well shared is using my ultimate potential to serve others in purpose.